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One of my greatest frustrations is how messy I am. Why in the world do I have to manage myself so darn much?

Will God sacrifice me to heal them? Was I just a tool He brought into their life to help them and bring about healing; collateral damage?

I'll begin with, I understand there are many nuances within relationships. This is just one filter I've put into place to check myself as I encounter those who may be different than me, for which I believe can really damage potential, growth opportunity relationships. Here goes... our life is our stage, and we get to be the writers of our own story . It gets confusing because there are a lot of people that “share our stage,” but they have their own story/script. Often, we tr

I couldn't be messier, but I'm also willing to be transparent and take the risk that my journey might be an encouragement.

This is my attempt to outline the story that led me here. They are essentially the qualifiers that make me so very unqualified...

After anxiously awaiting takeoff, the roller coaster began the slow chug up the epic climb most coasters begin with...

As I continue to walk my path of healing, I’m consistently surprised by God’s persistence which requires me to look deeper, to heal deeper. Being transparent, it can be quite exhausting. It seems like a constant juggling act – uncovering cobwebs, contemplating truths against lies, and what feels like a never-ending emotional micrographic surgery procedure. Psalm 38:17-18 What is micrographic surgery? It’s the process of removing one thin layer of cancerous tissue at a time; a

Our nervous systems are fascinating... and although, they have "good intentions," are incredibly effective at keeping us stuck! The simple decision to sit in front of my keyboard, literally saying out loud, "You are not allowed to work, you may only journal!" sent my being into a flurry. I thought about doing one of my vagus nerve exercises before starting, but have decided to capture my struggle so I can appreciate the release, giving others a chance to benefit from my jour

Where to start…? I’m remembering a vision that God placed in my heart during a time of complete uncertainty. The enemy was ruthlessly lying to me – screaming that I was loosing everything… but he was wrong. I did have to let go of what was in my hands so I could receive God’s next dose of blessing – but I was not a looser, I was loved. He reminded me that I’m His canvas; we’re all His canvas. He has an intimate plan for each of our lives. For we are His workmanship, creat

If you have any doubts about my level of humility or deflation of ego, this video should provide perfect insight into how my real-time journey feels. I have to choose to walk with confidence every day, completely aware I'll fall on my face. I might be stunned! You might laugh! I might struggle to find my feet! But, I'm going to choose not to be embarrassed, so I don't have to be embarrassed. Did you know that's a decision we can make? Transparently, I'm not fully there yet. L

Although it's great to have people that are compatible in our life, how do we know they aren't using us?

At almost 50-years-old, it's embarrassing to think I'm just starting to understand this. Hang in there, hopefully I'll unpack it in a way that seems rational. For years, I've been aware that my unique, passionate way of approaching things can exasperate others. Especially those who like to follow a straight line, or are extremely attached to their approach. For years, my self-talk insisted that I need to edit myself to better accommodate other's needs because my way was a bit

Reel about knowing one's value even if others don't.

Instagram reel about not abandoning one's self for the approval of others.

Love is a choice not a feeling.

The dilemma of being compatible in a relationship.

Bully… no matter what age or stage of life we are in, the word “BULLY” tends to create an upwelling of righteous anger and often, even disgust. So what is the technical definition of “bully”? The repeated action of using strength, influence, or voice (words) to INTIMIDATE or TEAR SOMEONE DOWN ; typically with the goal of CONTROLLING that person – or to SHAME and HUMILIATE them in order to LIFT THEMSELVES UP . We typically go straight to a childhood playground in our mind

I do want to establish that I believe God has called us to share life and to surround ourselves with accountability. That said, I believe that those are limited to a very few and very specific individuals that are typically well adjusted people of character who have the ability to listen while being transparent and honest, even if that means telling you when you’re off the mark. They should also be able to determine and express what is working through a feeling vs. downright

As lover’s of Jesus or "good people,” I feel like we can climb up on our self-righteous perch and tend to deflect responsibility from our daily and destructive sins – weighing them against the perceived egregious sins of others. Interestingly enough, of all the things, specifically listed, that God hates, only one falls into our typical definition of egregious sins. We should all be careful that we know what actually infuriates God based on what He says, not based on our own

I can’t possibly encompass all the ways pride has infiltrated my being, so I thought I’d simply start by sharing the moment the “scales fell off my eyes” and I became devastatingly aware of my pride. I remember driving home from work and innocently praying , “God please reveal any dark area of my heart that you want to change.” What happened next was unexpected and overwhelming. Immediately images began flooding my mind of all the ways I’d walked in pride. It was so devasta